I am so unhealthy. I know I am. I eat so much rubbish food (chocolate, Chinese, pancakes, pizza) and on paper I am serious a binge drinker. I have a job that involves sitting down all day and even though I am within walking distance of my normal place of work, I often choose to drive if it's a bit too hot or cold, a little bit rainy or I just can't be bothered to get up on time. On top of all of this, I have completely lost my motivation for the gym. I get so frustrated with myself every day and I know that I'm the only person who can change it.
So I did...
Being the sort of person that I am, I need a routine. I've been seeing someone over the last few weeks that has helped me start to realise this. I've always felt like I'm quite a laid back person but actually I need a lot more structure in my life than I currently have. I am learning how to help myself control this. I'm also struggling with the emotional side of feeling unhealthy and putting so much weight on which means I don't feel great mentally a lot of the time. I'm making sure that all the changes I make will help the emotional side of this too.
It's slow progress, but we shall get there. I have been struggling with getting myself into a healthy lifestlye. Whilst I know all the theory and all of the ways to do this putting the practice in has proved difficult. Why? Because I put pressure on myself. I never make small changes, just big ones that always fail. So what did I do? Made SMART goals. Goals that are Specific, Measurable, Achievable, Realistic and Timely.
With this in mind, here are some things I have been trying to change to create a better me and make myself feel healthier, happier and more fulfilled.
This has been so difficult as I am picking meals way in advance for both myself and Nicky, but it's helping me eat better. It also means that I am looking at my shifts in advance, knowing what I'm doing and being able to plan around this. I am making sure I stick to it as best I can and have a food diary which I write down what I have actually eaten to be able to compare the two. I look forward to seeing the way this will change my eating habits in the future, and I hope that it eventually becomes second nature to me which for someone so disorganised will be the best thing for me and my lifestyle!
Aiming to do one productive thing a day
Whether this is a household chore - such as cleaning a room in the house - or writing, or just having a general job to do, it makes me feel like I have achieved more than I have been doing recently. Something as simple as going to the shop to pick up some more bin bags or something you need for the house can make your whole day feel so much more productive. You may also find once you have made a move to start doing that one thing, other things come naturally to you.
I go to the gym fairly regularly. Well as I said at the top of this post I used to, and I'm gradually building back up to that. But I have decided on non-gym days to do exercise at home. I've scoured YouTube for ages to find some great channels and some fab exercises to do when I have ten minutes at home and found some that I love! See my favourites below. May be you could give some a try and see how you find it?
I have found that I often bottle everything up. If someone has a probelm, then I no longer have one. I feel like I don't want to be that person that is sad all the time when actually, sometimes I need a chat and a good cry. Nicky, my friends, my mum - all these people I feel I can vent off some frustration about what is going on and they all have different ways they handle what I've said to them. And it's always what I need. Talking to someone will always help; friend, family member, even a GP or a counseller just to get it off your chest. It will make a huge difference as to how you are feeling which will then create a better mood for you to make the above changes and create a better lifestyle for yourself, which can make you a happier person.
I'm not suggesting all of these will work for everyone, as I always say everyone is completely individual which means everyone has their own individual way of dealing with things and turning things around that makes them unhappy. Take everything I write as a basic guidline of what works for me personally and adapt it to suit you.
Do you have any other ideas about ways to help yourself? Do you have anything that you want to add to this? Pop it in the comments below and share with your friends!