When I think my hopes and dreams and what I want to do in my life, I am nowhere close. And I mean nowhere. In fact, I feel like I am constantly taking one step forward and two steps back. I think I have found a place in the world where I can grow, then something goes wrong and I am like "actually, no, this isn't my place in the world at all." I'm not currently ready to talk about everything that is going on, but when I do I promise I will share more of my story with you all and hopefully it will help some people with similar situations which is what this blog is all about.
Since I had a door slammed in my face knocking me to the ground a few months ago, another one opened that I was hoping would lead to a positive change in my life, but that one soon got closed too. I was so close to giving up. But as soon as I decided I was a loser and I wasn't going to succeed in anything I tried to do, I saw a big ray of light shine through another door. I'm not quite through that door yet but I am nearly there.
I have mentioned this before, and I will say it again - one of my goals is to work for myself as a writer. I want to have published books, poetry and any other type of writing I can do. I want to support small businesses and potentially larger businesses in the world of social media and blogging and all of this will be a dream job. With everything that has happened over the last 6-7 months, my future dreams are so much clearer and I am putting so much together to try and make them a reality.
There are a few windows swinging on hinges that I'm trying to climb through, and I feel like I am being pulled in all different directions by different things happening in my life. It's affecting relationships, morals, health and of course - my mind. I'm not the person I was a few short weeks ago. But I'm learning lessons and I'm trying to move forward, albeit slowly.